Panic

Deep inside my brain my thoughts are driving me insane. I close my eyes and dream. Absorbed in it, I can't explain. Call me erratic, lost inside this world that I created. In a panic now, I need to be sedated. Walls are closing in, it's getting hot, it's hard to breathe. I think I'm dying now, if this is fake, I don't believe. My hands are shaking cold, with every breath I'm getting closer. Waiting for the calm, and all of this to just be over. 

Dreaming, wake up screaming. Throw me off, but don't let me go. Seething, just keep breathing. Calm me down, don't let me panic.

Fear of sleeping. Secrets keeping. Nail biting. Fingers tapping. No tomorrow, I need help now. Sweating terror without warning, suffocating every morning. When it happens it's my biggest fear, body in shock and noises you can't hear. Soon it will be over, soon I will be numb.